No babies yet!

We are still at home! I've been brought into the hospital 3 days in a row only to be sent home because they either didn't have enough nurses or enough beds on the maternity ward! Why they keep calling me in only to send me home again several hours later, I don't know. I think I just have terrible timing, I get there and then as they are preparing to admit me, someone more urgent comes in! They always hook me and babies up to monitoring in the assessment room, monitor us for awhile, wait for the OB to come assess me, order some blood work etc and then come back all apologetic that they have no room for me! Tonight I was actually admitted to a labour room, the orders were written for the oxytocin and they were about to start the IV and then my nurse got called away to help another patient. Over an hour later they came back and said they needed to send me home! We are getting so frustrated! I joked with T that we pretty much suck at becoming parents! Nothing ever goes smoothly! Well, hopefully I'll have some better news soon!

Induction time!

So, at some point today I will be getting a call from the hospital with a time to show up to get the induction going! Originally it was going to be tomorrow but my blood pressure is on the high side so my OB wants to get things moving. I'm sooooo nervous! I truly can't believe that I've made it to 38 weeks after such drama basically since the beginning of the pregnancy (well actually since the fertilization report!), and now, it's almost over! I will likely be holding two babies in my arms sometime tomorrow!

Last night T and I went out for dinner and I was having a hard time not getting all emotional (I'm tearing up as I write this, too). I looked at him and said "It's been a great 7 years just the two of us, now it's time for the next adventure". I don't know why but I just about lost it in the restaurant. He has been such an amazing husband through all this crap that we have dealt with. I couldn't have wished for a better partner. Oh, my word, I'm crying now. OK, enough of this sentimental stuff, I just can't take it!

Well, the next time I update this it will be with a birth announcement! Thank you so much to all of you who have supported me with encouraging words since I started this blog nearly a year ago. Erin, you were my first commenter and although our paths ending up looking very different, I'm so grateful for your comments and encouragement and I hope we can meet one day! You should come surfing with us!

OK friends, I'll post something as soon as I can...although our hospital doesn't have wireless and I'm kinda anti-smartphone so it might be not until we get home in a few days!

37 Weeks

Just had an appointment with my OB and my induction is set for next Thursday, June 13th! So crazy to think that after all that scary time on bedrest that I may need to be induced! I'm still hoping to go into labor naturally before then but at least now we have an official plan if I don't. I'm trying to enjoy every little movement from them, knowing that more than likely this will be my only pregnancy. At my growth ultrasound last week they measured them as approximately 6lbs 8oz and 6lbs 15oz! Big babies! The tech did warn me that at this point with them being so squished in there that the measurements aren't all that accurate but she could definitely see chubby cheeks on both! I am so excited to meet them!

36 weeks!!!!!!!

I don't really have much to say except "HOLY CRAP I AM 36 WEEKS PREGNANT!!!!!" That means it is a maximum of 2 weeks until we get to meet these two. I am SO ready to be done being pregnant and move on to being a mom! My sister-in-law is convinced I am going to go into labor on Saturday...guess we'll just have to see! Can't wait to update this blog with a picture of the two munchkins!

35 weeks and 7 years

Yesterday was a big day...first of all I've hit 35 weeks! Woohoo! And, of course, it was our 7 year wedding anniversary. Never in a million years did I imagine that we would be married 7 years and not have a couple of kids running around but hey, I am just so thankful to be where we are today. Including the time before infertility where we tried to adopt a baby internationally, we have been trying to become parents for nearly 5 years. Crazy! But now, we are merely weeks (or less) away from meeting our babies. The thought of that overwhelms me. I am just so thankful! Obviously the timing wasn't what I would have chosen if given the option 7 years ago but now that we're here, I can't imagine it any other way.

Last week two of my closest friends each had their 3rd little boys. For once I could snuggle those little babies and not grieve the fact that I may never get the chance to hold one of my own. I am so excited that our kids are going to be so close in age! By the end of 2013, SIX of my closest friends will have had babies this year! Imagine how much fun we are all going to have with our kids! Amazing timing.

In the "twin pregnancy is tough" category (stop reading now if you want!) I've really really been struggling with sleep. I don't think I've slept longer than a 2.5 hour stretch in almost 2 months. Most nights I'm up every 1-2 hours. Either I have to pee, I get a contraction (which are getting more painful!) or my leg/hip falls asleep and I have to walk around to get feeling back. Ugh! It definitely takes it's toll on your body! Yesterday I was feeling almost delirious from lack of sleep. At least I will be well-prepared for the crazy nights up feeding the twins. Poor T, he claims me grunting and groaning as I haul myself out of bed doesn't bother him but I don't see how it can't!

I leave you with the gorgeous crib that T made (the second one will be done closer to when they need their own). He also made the mobile! I have such a multi-talented husband! He is currently working on the dresser/changing table. I am so lucky!

34 Weeks

Another week down! Had an OB appointment today and he is just thrilled that I've made it this far. Everything is perfect at the moment, they are growing well, both are head down, my BP is good, my non-stress tests are great...he sees no reason that I can't get all the way until 38 weeks! That would be nuts considering how scared they were that I was going to deliver at 26 weeks when they put me on bedrest! T and I are just so thankful that everything is working out. Finally!

Mother's Day was weird. The past couple of years I have done everything in my power to avoid seeing people other than my mom on Mother's Day because it would make me too emotional. Two years ago I accidently went to church on Mother's Day without thinking about what day it was and boy, was that a mistake. "Please, would all the mothers stand and receive flowers from the sunday school kids"...every woman around me stood and there I sat, tears filling my eyes. Definitely did not make that mistake last year. This year I went and really appreciated that EVERY woman in the church was acknowledged, not just the mothers. I wonder if someone had complained. I received a lovely bouquet of flowers from T and two beautiful red roses from my mother-in-law, one for each baby. However, I don't think I'll ever be a huge fan of Mother's Day. It was hard to feel like celebrating when I know that so many people are feeling like I've felt over the past few years...grief-stricken and lonely. Somehow when the twins are old enough I'd love to instill a tradition that we write a card or something to someone we know who has either lost their mother, lost a child or are unable to have a child. Something to acknowledge "the other side" of this holiday. We'll see. So...if you are reading this and Sunday was a tough day for you...know that I was thinking about you and hoping that next Mother's Day will be the one that you are dreaming of.

Chunky babies!

Nearing 33 weeks! I've now been discharged from the perinatologist as well as the home-care bedrest program because I am "too stable"! That's a good thing! My last ultrasound with the peri on Thursday (32 weeks 2 days) showed that I am growing some good-sized twins! Twin A is approximately 4lbs 11oz and Twin B is approximately 4lbs 15oz! CRAZY! They are large even for singletons at this point in a pregnancy! No wonder I feel so huge! I'm thrilled though, knowing that with a short cervix, they could still come early but at least they will be good weights. The though of carrying them until 38 weeks makes me feel a little nauseous...they are going to be massive by then! Let's aim for 36-37 weeks! Although of course, the longer they stay in there, the better! Sleep is becoming nearly impossible. I am up every 1-2 hours to pee (Thank you Twin A for pressing against my bladder!) and if I don't have to pee, I am just super uncomfortable. Rolling over is like an Olympic event! I am trying my best to enjoy these last few weeks as much as possible since this will more-than-likely be my only pregnancy but it's getting harder and harder! They are definitely getting squished in there...they no longer "kick" it's more like shifting around. My belly looks like it has a couple of aliens in there some evenings!

On another note...May 21st is our 7 year wedding anniversary. Since this will be our last anniversary without children I'm trying to think of something nice we can do. Normally we would go away for a weekend (or even a longer holiday) around our anniversary but that's not going to be possible this year. I also don't have any nice clothes that fit that would allow us to go out to a fancy restaurant. Hmmm...any suggestions? I'd love to make it a special evening.