Saturday, September 22, 2012
I'm a big baby...
So last night I gave myself my first injection of Menopur/Bravelle. T wasn't home so it was up to me to do it (we had originally planned to have him give them to me but he was working late). It was absolutely pathetic how nervous I was, even just mixing up the meds. My hands were shaking. This is crazy because at work I spend many many hours drawing up and administering immunizations so I should not be nervous around vials of meds and needles! I was convinced I was doing it wrong so checked and rechecked my schedule a million times....OK, 75units Menopur....150units Bravelle....that means 1 vial of Menopur and 2 of Bravelle....oh I hope I have this right! Basic math, people, basic math and I was stressed I was getting it wrong! Finally I got it all drawn up and ready. I uncapped the needle, pinched by stomach and proceeded to put the needle in WAY TOO SLOWLY! I know better, it hurt like crazy even just going in. Then came the pushing the medicine in. Man that stings! Supposedly its the Menopur that stings. I finished, put the syringe down then the whole room started to spin and I had to lay down on the kitchen floor! I'm so glad T wasn't home because he would have been laughing hysterically at me (we are both nurses so have little patience for drama!). I can't believe I almost passed out. Unbelievable! What a baby I am. I left a note for T on the counter that read "That fucking hurt, I almost passed out, you are doing it tomorrow" and went to bed. Tonight we have to do the injection at my parents house so I told T I would go lay down and he could inject me while I'm laying down so I don't feel dizzy. I'm embarrassed to admit all this because of what I do for a living. Geez. Oh, the stuff we are willing to do to get a baby!
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Don't be hard on youself! I am sure it is way easier to give a shot than get one. And the menopur really does burn! But the first one is the worst because of the anticipation...by the end, you will be a pro! Lots of luck!
ReplyDeleteThanks! You too! Can't wait to hear your Beta results! Fingers/Toes etc crossed!
DeleteI would probably be a mess too if I had to inject myself and worry about how many doses of what and needles don't bother me at all. Don't be embarrassed! Good luck!
ReplyDeleteThank you! It was alot better last night when T did it for me. I think I can make it through!
DeleteWarrior woman!
ReplyDeleteI have zero - I repeat, zero - fear of needles, but I still had Bub do it because I was so afraid of doing it to myself and having some kind of hesitation. And oh lawdy, how many times we checked to see we were doing all the math right.
I bow in the shadow of your awesomeness. And laugh at you.. but just a little bit.
Yes, I deserve to be laughed at! It was pretty funny! Glad to hear I'm not the only one paranoid about getting the math wrong!
DeleteHappy ICLW! Thanks for visiting ... and for the record? I am a MUCH bigger baby than you are. You? You ROCK.
ReplyDeleteSending good thoughts your way! Hang in there ...
Thank you! I appreciate all good thoughts sent this way!
DeleteOmg I totally remember doing Menopur for the first time by myself! I was a nervous wreck! But you survived! Yay! And yes Menopur burns like hell! Hang in there. Hoping this is your cycle!
ReplyDeleteGlad I'm not the only one who finds Menopur painful! Normally I have a pretty high pain tolerance!
DeleteI'm a nurse too and mixing and giving my meds was one of the toughest things I've ever had to do! You did just fine!
ReplyDeleteThanks! Felt kinda stupid but feeling better about it now!
DeleteUntil you've actually passed out in the middle of the doctor's office waiting room, don't feel too bad! I was a total wimp my first go round and made my husband give me every single shot. And yes, menopur stings but you start to get used to it. Go go gadget follicles!
ReplyDeleteYou passed out in your doctor's waiting room? That's awesome/awful! Something to laugh about now I'm sure! Thanks for stopping by!
DeleteI found your blog through ICLW; I forgot to sign up for it this month. Oh this brings back memories. Last year at this time I was doing my first shots preparing for my first IVF.
ReplyDeleteYou are so right, it's amazing what we will do for a baby! It's even more amazing at what we get used to! I'm sure pretty soon you will (unfortunately) be a pro at all of this!
ReplyDeleteRepronex stings like hell. I remember when I was nervous and put it in slow, a quick jab is definitely the way to go! It is amazing (and) frustrating what we must go through, wishing you the best in your upcoming cycle.
ReplyDeleteOh dear that is funny that you had to lie down, I am sorry! Happy iclw!
ReplyDeleteGood luck with your cycle. I nearly always made my husband do my injections, I thought it hurt less!
ReplyDeleteI felt the same way with my progesterone IM shots. After a while I became a pro and felt like a champion every time I did an injection. I hope you feel like a champion soon, too!
ReplyDeleteHello from ICLW! Thanks for stopping by my blog. I am laughing hysterically right now, because this could totally be my first IVF experience (and I DID have it wrong...even though it was basic math...lol!). Definitely time for T to take over!
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I can imagine being totally anxious about it... and I'm sure giving someone else a shot is way easier than doing it yourself! Huge good luck to you guys this cycle.
ReplyDeleteI wasn't nervous for the Menopure or Follistim but I was super nervous for the giant trigger shot needle for my first fresh cycle. Then I was really nervous again for the PIO needle for this FET cycle. But I'm slowly getting used to it. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteHappy ICLW! Thanks for stopping by my blog :) I found the Menopur and Bravelle really burned for me too so I iced the area before the injection and that seemed to help. Good luck!
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