34 Weeks

Another week down! Had an OB appointment today and he is just thrilled that I've made it this far. Everything is perfect at the moment, they are growing well, both are head down, my BP is good, my non-stress tests are great...he sees no reason that I can't get all the way until 38 weeks! That would be nuts considering how scared they were that I was going to deliver at 26 weeks when they put me on bedrest! T and I are just so thankful that everything is working out. Finally!

Mother's Day was weird. The past couple of years I have done everything in my power to avoid seeing people other than my mom on Mother's Day because it would make me too emotional. Two years ago I accidently went to church on Mother's Day without thinking about what day it was and boy, was that a mistake. "Please, would all the mothers stand and receive flowers from the sunday school kids"...every woman around me stood and there I sat, tears filling my eyes. Definitely did not make that mistake last year. This year I went and really appreciated that EVERY woman in the church was acknowledged, not just the mothers. I wonder if someone had complained. I received a lovely bouquet of flowers from T and two beautiful red roses from my mother-in-law, one for each baby. However, I don't think I'll ever be a huge fan of Mother's Day. It was hard to feel like celebrating when I know that so many people are feeling like I've felt over the past few years...grief-stricken and lonely. Somehow when the twins are old enough I'd love to instill a tradition that we write a card or something to someone we know who has either lost their mother, lost a child or are unable to have a child. Something to acknowledge "the other side" of this holiday. We'll see. So...if you are reading this and Sunday was a tough day for you...know that I was thinking about you and hoping that next Mother's Day will be the one that you are dreaming of.