Thanks for your support ladies! Feeling better this week..but not good enough to attend a BBQ thrown by one of the pregnant friends...just couldn't deal with it...
We had a lovely weekend away at my family's cabin. We took T's parents up there and had such a great time. The weather was hotter than it was in July when I was up there. We fished, suntanned, walked, ate (A LOT!) and just relaxed. On the way home yesterday I was sitting in the backseat staring out the window (it's a 6 hour drive) and realized that I was feeling super down again. I had felt really good all weekend, even going as far as being kind of thankful that we didn't have kids with us as it would have been a lot less relaxing. However, as soon as we were driving back down to reality...I started to feel depressed again. I think that I need distractions and things to look forward to. I think I made it through this summer with the 3 negative IUI's only because we had lots of weekends away and family stuff to look forward to. Now what am I going to distract myself with? I'm really dreading the 2ww after my ET. I am going to be a mess!
I was expecting AF to show up this past weekend but I guess that Synarel can make it a bit late. I, of course, started to imagine pregnancy symptoms (as I have done every 25-27 days for 2.5 years) and took a pregnancy test this morning. Duh, of course it was negative. Why do I do this to myself? I just want AF to start so I can start my injections! Then I will feel like I am actually doing something!
Ugh. Sorry depression found you, my love. :( Injections will be here before you know it.
ReplyDeleteI think the meds make it harder to stay positive. I am struggling since starting the lupron and before it I was doing great. Hang in there. Once injections start the time will fly!
ReplyDeleteI think you're right...it could definitely be the meds. Especially if we are both feeling it! Soon it will be over and we will both be pregnant (oh man I hope so!)
DeleteI've done the "AF hasn't arrived yet...hmm...maybe I am miraculously pregnant after all" thing too. And every time, I wonder why I did that to myself. Glad to know I'm not alone. ;)
ReplyDeleteI'm glad I'm not the only one! I drive myself crazy almost every month! This has got to stop!
DeleteWhy is AF so ornery! I swear she does the opposite of what we want her to do! And I totally feel you on the pregnancy tests. When I was spotting so much on my birth control, I must have taken about 10 pregnancy tests. And each time I knew it would be white, but I could not stop myself! So lump me in with you and sams!
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