Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Distractions

Thanks for your support ladies! Feeling better this week..but not good enough to attend a BBQ thrown by one of the pregnant friends...just couldn't deal with it...

We had a lovely weekend away at my family's cabin. We took T's parents up there and had such a great time. The weather was hotter than it was in July when I was up there. We fished, suntanned, walked, ate (A LOT!) and just relaxed. On the way home yesterday I was sitting in the backseat staring out the window (it's a 6 hour drive) and realized that I was feeling super down again. I had felt really good all weekend, even going as far as being kind of thankful that we didn't have kids with us as it would have been a lot less relaxing. However, as soon as we were driving back down to reality...I started to feel depressed again. I think that I need distractions and things to look forward to. I think I made it through this summer with the 3 negative IUI's only because we had lots of weekends away and family stuff to look forward to. Now what am I going to distract myself with? I'm really dreading the 2ww after my ET. I am going to be a mess!

I was expecting AF to show up this past weekend but I guess that Synarel can make it a bit late. I, of course, started to imagine pregnancy symptoms (as I have done every 25-27 days for 2.5 years) and took a pregnancy test this morning. Duh, of course it was negative. Why do I do this to myself? I just want AF to start so I can start my injections! Then I will feel like I am actually doing something!

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  1. Ugh. Sorry depression found you, my love. :( Injections will be here before you know it.

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  2. I think the meds make it harder to stay positive. I am struggling since starting the lupron and before it I was doing great. Hang in there. Once injections start the time will fly!

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    1. I think you're right...it could definitely be the meds. Especially if we are both feeling it! Soon it will be over and we will both be pregnant (oh man I hope so!)

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  3. I've done the "AF hasn't arrived yet...hmm...maybe I am miraculously pregnant after all" thing too. And every time, I wonder why I did that to myself. Glad to know I'm not alone. ;)

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    1. I'm glad I'm not the only one! I drive myself crazy almost every month! This has got to stop!

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  4. Why is AF so ornery! I swear she does the opposite of what we want her to do! And I totally feel you on the pregnancy tests. When I was spotting so much on my birth control, I must have taken about 10 pregnancy tests. And each time I knew it would be white, but I could not stop myself! So lump me in with you and sams!

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