So today I am 18 weeks 2 days. I can't say that I have loved pregnancy so far....well, I love BEING pregnant, but I'm still so scared that something is going to go wrong that I can't really relax and enjoy it. This week has been the first week that I really started attaching to these babies. Talking, singing to them, being OK with my husband's obsession with stroller research (don't ask) and constantly touching my belly. I think having the belly grow exponentially over the past couple of weeks as helped. There is NO QUESTION that I am pregnant! T has started working on the babies' room. He is so good at wood-working and things like that and so far he has put up wainscotting and will be starting to make their cribs soon too! I went as far as looking at baby bedding this week. Actually found a nice gender-neutral one that I really like. The colors of the bedding are different than I ever imagined I'd like...hey wait, I'll find a picture of the bedding I like...hold on...
See...totally different but I like it! The quilt has a little surfboard, flip-flops and tropical flower on it which is so us! I don't think we'll paint the room orange, maybe more of an aqua color.
About genders...I have always said that I would not find out the gender of a baby I was having before giving birth. I kind of have a thing for surprises so finding out with a joyful shout of "It's a Boy (or Girl)" right after the hard work of delivery just sounds better to me than having an ultrasound tech tell me. I don't know...I just like the idea better. That being said, trust me, I've been tempted to find out (next ultrasound is in 2 weeks) so we'll see if this conviction about not finding out lasts the rest of the pregnancy! The other night while I was looking at bedding I became convinced that I had to find out, otherwise I would never find bedding I liked. Lo and behold, there is some nice gender-neutral stuff out there. I do LOVE finding out what others are having though so in no way do I think it's "wrong" to find out early...it's just my preference for me.
On Sunday I went to see my friend M from this post. She is due on Feb 13th. Man oh man do I wish that I was at her point in pregnancy! She looks great. She and her husband are lawyers so I did get a bit of a stab of envy when I saw their nursery...top-of-the-line EVERYTHING! I can only imagine how much they have spent! My poor twins will feel like second-class citizens with their home-made cribs and hand-me-downs compared to their rich friend! Oh well...as my mom put it when I mentioned this to her "your twins will have top-of-the-line parents and a custom-made nursery"....thanks mom, that did make me feel better! And T will do a fantastic job on the cribs...it's just hard to think about all the money that we put into treatment that could have been spent on baby stuff!
OK, now you are all feeling nauseous from this post...sorry! Hope I haven't gone too far!