Today I am 10 weeks pregnant. Just writing that gives me the chills. I am so shocked and thankful to be here. Luckily the bleeding has slowed down a lot. I'm still spotting but just trying to take it as easy as possible to prevent it getting worse. It's been exactly a week since any big red gushes and that's the longest without one since this bleeding thing started. I'm still terrified each time I go to bathroom and am still wearing a pad at work "just in case" but I'm REALLY hoping that the worst is over. I don't have another ultrasound until the nuchal translucency one at 12 weeks which seems so far away! Originally we weren't going to do the NT ultrasound and the bloodwork that accompanies it (all looking for genetic issues like Down Syndrome etc). What changed my mind is when my midwife told me that otherwise, my next ultrasound would be at 18 weeks! GULP! I CANNOT go that long without seeing them and making sure they are OK. She also told me that the bloodwork can detect early signs of placental problems as well and that would make me get monitored more closely so I guess that is good information to know. I hope this screening doesn't just make me worry more if something comes back a little "off". We'll just have to wait and see!
It's crazy how, although being pregnant makes other peoples (easy) pregnancies a little more bearable, it still really really stings when I hear a pregnancy announcement. I guess I'll never get over that. Also, a lady at work (everyone there knows) was talking about "next time" I'm pregnant (don't ask me!)...I reminded her that there will likely not be a "next time" as IVF is very expensive and we will be so happy with our two. She just smiled and said..."oh, now that you paid all this money to get pregnant, you'll be able to get pregnant really easily next time". UM WHAT? That's almost as bad as "just adopt, then you'll get pregnant". I really had to hold my tongue. What a strange thing to say!
Glad to hear that the bleeding is slowing down! Hope your new tww goes by really quick.
ReplyDeleteCan I punch this lady for you? And I mean it :)
Haha, she is a really sweet lady...English isn't her first language so maybe it just came out wrong! I was a little stunned though!
DeleteOh my god I can't even tell you how many people have said how easily I'll get pregnant next time, or how I might have gotten pregnant while waiting for IVF to begin. Seriously? Our chances of conceiving naturally were impossibly low, or we wouldn't have been doing IVF with ICSI as our first and only option. People are f-ing clueless.
ReplyDeleteYay 10 weeks! Don't worry about your NT scan. It's just another chance to see those babes!
I know...it's not like we were just doing IVF because we were "impatient"...come on, we had tried naturally for 2 and a half years! It wasn't going to happen!
DeleteYea for 10 weeks, you're 1/4 th of the way there! You can do this!
ReplyDeleteI hadn't thought about it that way! And since twins normally come early I'm even further! Hard to believe!
DeleteThose kind of comments always grind my gears when I hear them. Ugh. So happy you're at 10 weeks!!
ReplyDeleteYes, people are so clueless!
DeleteSo sorry your co-worker said that to you. How rude and ignorant!! Some people just don't get it. Congrats on 10 weeks...yay!!
ReplyDeleteUgh! Right, just like "relax and it will happen" "give up and it will happen" or "you're so young, just give it time"
ReplyDelete10 weeks! Woot! Yay! Good job, Momma!
Yay for 10 weeks! That coworker's comment was definitely shortsighted. Those who haven't dealt with infertility will never truly get it and those of us who have dealt with it will likely never forget. It makes me sad that thoughts of getting pregnancy are likely always going to be tainted to a degree. Like when people tell me they are trying I'll be thinking "Good luck, hopefully it actually works out for you" even though it is just fine for most people.
ReplyDeleteAnd as you said in your previous post it taints the early pregnancy too because even though every pregnancy is a precious gift, you're likely to recognize what a true miracle it is after such a fight for it. And you've been devastated so many times before that you become scared if it happening again or of hoping too much because it could seem too good to be true (or so I suspect, having never experienced a pregnancy myself).
ReplyDeleteI can totally relate to the part about other people's easy pregnancies stinging... both of my brothers have gotten their girlfriends pregnant during our struggle with infertility. I am happy for them, but it is still REALLY hard...
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