Today I am 10 weeks pregnant. Just writing that gives me the chills. I am so shocked and thankful to be here. Luckily the bleeding has slowed down a lot. I'm still spotting but just trying to take it as easy as possible to prevent it getting worse. It's been exactly a week since any big red gushes and that's the longest without one since this bleeding thing started. I'm still terrified each time I go to bathroom and am still wearing a pad at work "just in case" but I'm REALLY hoping that the worst is over. I don't have another ultrasound until the nuchal translucency one at 12 weeks which seems so far away! Originally we weren't going to do the NT ultrasound and the bloodwork that accompanies it (all looking for genetic issues like Down Syndrome etc). What changed my mind is when my midwife told me that otherwise, my next ultrasound would be at 18 weeks! GULP! I CANNOT go that long without seeing them and making sure they are OK. She also told me that the bloodwork can detect early signs of placental problems as well and that would make me get monitored more closely so I guess that is good information to know. I hope this screening doesn't just make me worry more if something comes back a little "off". We'll just have to wait and see!
It's crazy how, although being pregnant makes other peoples (easy) pregnancies a little more bearable, it still really really stings when I hear a pregnancy announcement. I guess I'll never get over that. Also, a lady at work (everyone there knows) was talking about "next time" I'm pregnant (don't ask me!)...I reminded her that there will likely not be a "next time" as IVF is very expensive and we will be so happy with our two. She just smiled and said..."oh, now that you paid all this money to get pregnant, you'll be able to get pregnant really easily next time". UM WHAT? That's almost as bad as "just adopt, then you'll get pregnant". I really had to hold my tongue. What a strange thing to say!