Worry worry worry...

Pregnancy after infertility is stressful. I am kind of a basket-case these days. Even though the scan on Monday showed no issues, I still fear the worst every time I see blood.  I think one of the problems is that I have read IF forums and blogs for so long that I know pretty much every possible horrible thing that could go wrong. Ugh. Yesterday I bled all day. That was a first for me as before that it would be one gush and then brown spotting while yesterday was lots of red gushes all day. So freaking scary. I know that at this point there is nothing I can do except take it easy and hope that all will be well. I HATE not feeling in control! I took yesterday and today off work to rest but the problem with that is that then I have all day to think and google. BAD! I'm going to try to go to work tomorrow but we'll see how I feel. Come on babies! We've waited so long for you! Please hang on!

While writing this post I got a call from my work supervisor. She made me cry (in a good way). She told me to stay at home the rest of the week and not worry about a thing. If I do decide to come then she'll take me off doing any clinics or baby home-visits and I can just do desk-work and take it easy. She is the best. I was worried that work would start getting impatient with me for all the time I have taken off...first for the IVF, then the OHSS and now this. I am so lucky. My work ladies are a second family to me and are so excited about the twins. Oh boy, now I'm crying again...silly pregnancy hormones!