Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Worry worry worry...

Pregnancy after infertility is stressful. I am kind of a basket-case these days. Even though the scan on Monday showed no issues, I still fear the worst every time I see blood.  I think one of the problems is that I have read IF forums and blogs for so long that I know pretty much every possible horrible thing that could go wrong. Ugh. Yesterday I bled all day. That was a first for me as before that it would be one gush and then brown spotting while yesterday was lots of red gushes all day. So freaking scary. I know that at this point there is nothing I can do except take it easy and hope that all will be well. I HATE not feeling in control! I took yesterday and today off work to rest but the problem with that is that then I have all day to think and google. BAD! I'm going to try to go to work tomorrow but we'll see how I feel. Come on babies! We've waited so long for you! Please hang on!

While writing this post I got a call from my work supervisor. She made me cry (in a good way). She told me to stay at home the rest of the week and not worry about a thing. If I do decide to come then she'll take me off doing any clinics or baby home-visits and I can just do desk-work and take it easy. She is the best. I was worried that work would start getting impatient with me for all the time I have taken off...first for the IVF, then the OHSS and now this. I am so lucky. My work ladies are a second family to me and are so excited about the twins. Oh boy, now I'm crying again...silly pregnancy hormones!


  1. I'm getting really angry at your bleeding right now! Darn! I was hoping that things would look better today. Argh!
    Can I just say I love your work supervisor. What a great and caring person! I'm so happy for you that you have such an amazing work place.
    Take good care of you and the twins!

  2. So frustrated for you that you are bleeding again...I don't know why this can't be easy! But very glad you have a supportive and understanding boss. Take care and try to rest ( far away from google).

  3. I'm sorry this is such a stressful time for you. Hopefully the bleeding will stop soon so you can start "enjoying" pregnancy. Thinking about you.