Sorry I've been missing in action since Saturday. That thing with my mother-in-law really threw us for a loop (she had her surgery and is now home, doing well) and having my best friend here left little time for blogging! I was also nominated by 2 lovely ladies for a Liebster Award and I will try my best to get my act together to answer the questions at some point this week! Just caught me at a bad time but I'm very thankful for the nominations!
My ultrasound is now one week away. To be honest with you I am absolutely TERRIFIED. I have basically convinced myself that they aren't going to find a heartbeat. I don't know how I'm going to survive until next Wednesday to find out. I think that I maybe have read too many blogs and forum posts where people have gotten bad news at their first ultrasound and so somehow believe the same thing is going to happen to me. I know, realistically, that there is nothing that I can do about it but I still worry worry worry. It is kind of paralyzing. It doesn't help that I seriously LOOK pregnant. The OHSS has never really gone away so I'm still quite bloated...I am about the same size as my friend who is 14 weeks pregnant with her 3rd baby. I even had to invest in a (cheap) pair of maternity pants on the weekend so that I had comfortable pants to wear to work. Otherwise I was so uncomfortable all day with the waist-band sticking into me! People have noticed my belly and are making comments which is really not helpful. UGH! Why can't this be easy? Five of my friends are expecting within 3 months of me which is so amazing but if something does happen to this pregnancy, I don't know how I will cope. Why am I thinking these things? I need to stop! Tell me to stop!
Sorry for the downer post. I'm about to spend the next 3 hours opening the door to hundreds of adorable cheerful children and their families to hand out candy....time to put my happy face on! Happy Halloween! And even better, tomorrow is my 30th Birthday!