Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Worrying never stops...

Sorry I've been missing in action since Saturday. That thing with my mother-in-law really threw us for a loop (she had her surgery and is now home, doing well) and having my best friend here left little time for blogging! I was also nominated by 2 lovely ladies for a Liebster Award and I will try my best to get my act together to answer the questions at some point this week! Just caught me at a bad time but I'm very thankful for the nominations!

My ultrasound is now one week away. To be honest with you I am absolutely TERRIFIED. I have basically convinced myself that they aren't going to find a heartbeat. I don't know how I'm going to survive until next Wednesday to find out. I think that I maybe have read too many blogs and forum posts where people have gotten bad news at their first ultrasound and so somehow believe the same thing is going to happen to me. I know, realistically, that there is nothing that I can do about it but I still worry worry worry. It is kind of paralyzing. It doesn't help that I seriously LOOK pregnant. The OHSS has never really gone away so I'm still quite bloated...I am about the same size as my friend who is 14 weeks pregnant with her 3rd baby. I even had to invest in a (cheap) pair of maternity pants on the weekend so that I had comfortable pants to wear to work. Otherwise I was so uncomfortable all day with the waist-band sticking into me! People have noticed my belly and are making comments which is really not helpful. UGH! Why can't this be easy? Five of my friends are expecting within 3 months of me which is so amazing but if something does happen to this pregnancy, I don't know how I will cope. Why am I thinking these things? I need to stop! Tell me to stop!

Sorry for the downer post. I'm about to spend the next 3 hours opening the door to hundreds of adorable cheerful children and their families to hand out candy....time to put my happy face on! Happy Halloween! And even better, tomorrow is my 30th Birthday!

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  1. Happy 30th!!!! I'm sorry you're so worried. I'm sure I'd be the same way if I was in your shoes. If it means anything I have a good feeling about your pregnancy. I hope you somehow find peace about it.

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    1. Thanks Erin, that means a lot. I hope so too! And one day you WILL be in my shoes. I know it!

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    2. Yes, but I'm counting on you to discover the cure for pregnancy worry before then, okay? :-)

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    3. Haha, sounds good...I'll try!

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  2. I totally, totally understand the worry! Hoping everything is okay for you. I just invested in some maternity leggings too, which feels ridiculous at 7.5 weeks, but I was so uncomfortable.

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  3. Happy Birthday my dear. I hope it really is a wonderful day!

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  4. Happy Birthday! I hope you have a wonderful day.
    I'm sure I would worry as much as you do! I hope this week goes by really fast and all goes well at your u/s next week!

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  5. Happy Birthday!! I hope you relax today and enjoy your day. I understand how worrisome the wait can be but it will fly right by. Still keeping my fingers crossed!

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  6. Happy Birthday! It's hard waiting for that first ultrasound, but there's nothing to say that things aren't ok, so try to believe they are. It'll be here before you know it.

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  7. Darn! I was going to nominate you for the Liebster Award, but now I know 2 other people already beat me too it! I'm really enjoying reading through your blog and catching up to your current story!

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